sweet goodbye.

Thursday, July 31, 2003

added a new links.. all my pictures that i have are all inside.. hahah.. cant wait for tml.. hee..

Sweet loving escape.
11:23 PM

Tuesday, July 29, 2003

weeee! feeling alright all and happy now! hehe! its been long since i last felt like that! hahha! alright! stole this from clay

1. Full name: deborah chia erm erm...
2. Nicknames: seriously, i have too many to name..
3. Eyes: black..
4. Height: 166cm
5. Hair: black black and cant be BLACKER!
6. Siblings: elder bro and sis
7. Do u like to sing in the shower? nope! dont wish to crack the mirror..
8. Do u like to sing in the toilet? no! fag maybe..
9. Birthday: 171287
10. Sign: sagi.
11. Address: tp east
12. Sex: female??
13. Righty or lefty: rightyyyyyy
14. What do you want in a relationship most? just want to feel comfortable that all.. haha
15. Have you ever cheated on someone: err... i think so? sheesh!
16. Maritial status: att
17. Do you have a car? hello? 16 here?? *waves*
18. What kinda car do you have/want? any 2 sitter, four sitter and six sitter.. ahahha
19. Movie: huh? its been long since i watched any..
20. Song: many.. dont want to cont. listing down
21. Band: -
22. TV Show: i dont like to watch tv
23. Actor: -.
24. Actress: -
25. Food: -
26. Number: 7,4
27. Cartoon: -
28. Disney Character: -
29. Colour: BLUEEEE!

LOVE LIFE ETC:

30. Do you plan on having children: yeap!
31. Do you want to get married: yeah!!!
32. How old do u wanna be when you have your first child: 25-30? too young ah?
33. How old do u wanna be when your married: 25-30? hahah! shot gun!
34. Would you have kids before marriage: i just said shot gun.. does that count?
35. Do you have a b/f or g/f: g/f
36. Do you have a crush?: att here.

EITHER-OR (PICK WHICH ONE YOU PREFER)

38. Music/TV: music*gosh! am feeling tired liao!*
39.Guys/Girls: girls..
40. Green/Blue: blue!
41. Pink/Purple: blue!
42. Summer/Winter: winter?
43. Night/Day: night
44. Hangin Out/Chillin: chillin
45. Dopey/Funny: funny! hahahahhah!

OTHERS

46. weird saying I have: i just laugh
47. what skool do u go to? chijtp..
48. have you ever taken drugs? no.
49. What's a major turn on for you?hmm....
50. How far would you go on a first date? depends..

51.The PERSON you know who is..

Most Blonde: -
Best Person: best? i dont know
Nicest: poh
Funniest: poh! my laughing partner!
Happiest: poH! alright! i seem like i have only 1 friend. hahah
FEIRCEST: hell! so many feirce people around!
CHEAPO: err.. dont know?
Most Caring: mum? errr.. dont know
TALLest: hell! how am i suppose to know!
Smartest: kalpz?xue?
Best Personality: argH! shut up!!
Best All Around Person: i said SHUTUP!
BIGGEST BREAST: err.. 4/2*smarties* people.. hahah
breast wannabes: i said SHUTUP!
ppl I LOVE THE MOSTest!: ME MYSELF AND I!

52.which 5 people do you trust and are open with the most? poh.. seriously.. i cant trust many people.. been betrayed off my trust too many times.
53. what do you think of soul mates? -
54. is it right to flirt if you have a bf/gf? right left right left right left! lalalala
55. what was the last thing you cried over or got teary about? when i was having probs in relationship.
56. what's something about guys/girls you don't get? -
57. are you happy? err.. right now yes. hours ago no.
59. What's an object you can't live without? LOVE
60. Love or Lust: love.
61. Silver or gold: Silver
62. Diamond or pearl: Diamonds
63. Sunset or sunrise: rise
65. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: yeah! with the me to you bear!
66. Do you have any piercings? -
69. What are the last four digits of your phone number? 4074
70. Where would you want to go on your honeymoon? north pole, so that we can cuddle together! ALL THE TIME!
71. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? -
73. What's your favourite instrument? -
74. What makes you happy? when SHE is happy.
75. What's the next cd/s you're gonna get/buy? burn burn burn
76. Do u wear contacts or glasses? glasses.. sucks..
77. What's the best advice given to you? no point blaming yourself when its not your fault
78. Have you ever won any special awards? yeah
79. What are your future goals? be successful
80. Worst sickness u ever had? virus fever!
81. Do you like Funny or scary movies better? scary!
82. On the phone or in person? in person
83. Hugs or Kisses? depends on my mood
84. What song seems to reflect you the most? -
85. If you die tmr who wud u leave everything u own to? i've got NOTHING!
86. Do u have any enemies? TONS!
87. What is your greatest fear? err.. many.. not sure whats the greatest
88. Would you rather be rich or famous? rich. i cant be bothered with fame.
89. What time is it in Albania now? ladida! i'm getting irritated!
90. Have you ever been in love? i dont know whats love
91. Have you met santa? shut up..
92. If E.T. knocked on your door holding up a peace sign asking to use your phone? i said SHUT UP!
93. When was the last time you talked to the person that you like: cant rem.
94. Do u have any pets? no.
95.Whats your email address? bit_hified@yahoo.com
97. Are you an alcoholic? dont know.
98. Who sent this to you? took it from clay's blog
99. What do you think of this person: HIMBO!!! hahahhaha
100. Do u want your friends to write back? fuck off! its done!

Sweet loving escape.
11:49 PM

Monday, July 28, 2003

sigh.. am feeling down again.. why must everything turn out this way? this isnt the way i picture our relationship to be.. whats wrong? please tell me.. i really cant wait till we talk things out tommorrow, i dont know if i should see our conversation to be on a bright side or not.. i dont wish to think any longer. i wish i can just shut down my brain. but i cant, its just too busy. i really so did miss you so very much. i dont wish to be stuck at the dead end, please blind my eyes and bring me to an open place, a place where there is no walls no nothing to block us. its the worst feeling i have felt in all my relationships, only reason because i really do love you and i really do treasure you and i would not let your hands just slip off mine just like that when it took me so much to have you. i dont wish to regret again.

Sweet loving escape.
8:50 PM

Sunday, July 27, 2003

wanna have dinner??

oh btw... tis is Clay. Thanks ah.. Invade my blogg.. My pic is gross-er. muahahaha

Sweet loving escape.
9:55 PM

you->> dear.. time out's over..
what i really think->> finally... its just been the sentence i've waiting to hear.. it just brought me up to cloud nine.. hope you know that its so easy for you to torture me.. for you to make me tear.. please dont do this again.. love you...

Sweet loving escape.
7:58 PM

Saturday, July 26, 2003

you->>i dont know if you are angry with me or if you have no idea how to talk to me or stuff. i want you to be happy but you dont seem that way. that's why i asked for time out.
what i really think--> i am happy when you are happy. i am unhappy when i see you unwell, when i see the smile off your face. i am naturely happy or rather on cloud nine whenever i see you smiling happily. i am willing to do anything for you as long as you can smile again. seriously. you should know that if i am angry with you, i would show it out, refuse to talk to you.. i will make it obvious that i am angry with you.. but when i am not... i will just shut down my brain.. let it rest.. you want me to be happy? easy.. just be happy yourself. it hurts me badly whenever i see you unhappy, worst.. feeling unwell..

you--> i dont know.. sometimes just you just dont seem too happy. maybe its just me. i've been told i'm not the stead material.
what i really think-->if i seem unhappy, recently its coz of external reasons. i've always felt that you are a nice stead. i dont wish to comment on that person who told you that. but from my opinion, seriously, i swear.. you are a nice, sweet stead. really.. am really serious about this

you--> ok.. then i have mistaken you.. i tend to blame myself when you're not happy
what i really think--> why blame yourself for something that isnt your fault. its alright that you have mistaken me. because at least you know now.. but seriously, dont blame yourself for things that are obviously not your fault.. its not always you that would cause me to be unhappy.. i do have people around me out to irritate me..

you--> i'm seriously not sure of myself yet.. i'm sorry i still need my time out.
what i really think--> alright. i have to repeat myself over and over again. i am a natural paranoid girl. when you said i'm seriously not sure of myself yet.. the thing that would come into my mind would be if you still have feelings for me.. you left me guessing just like that. it's seriously unfair to me. i dont see why i am helping other people in their relationship problems, yet i cant solve mine. will the time out really solve all your queries?? will it? must i really just break down before you stop torturing me? must i? but i just break down crying in front of everyone before you stop torturing me? before i saw you just now.. i told myself that i would not be bothered about anything anymore. but i find myself thinking about it every second, every minute.. cant wait to solve everything. but you asked for time. how much time must i give you? i tired.. but i will use up every bit of my energy in order to get everything back to normal. no point saying sorry when you have broken my heart. whats said is said, whats done is done. try breaking a cup and try to fix it back, even if you can fix it back, there would still be cracks there. same here. even if you fix my heart, there would still be scars left. please.. torture me no more.. it really hurts alot...

Sweet loving escape.
9:20 PM

you promised me that i would be happy.. why do i feel unhappy? why do i still find myself losing gallons of tears for you? really hope that this timeout will give you some time for you to know what you really want. she told me that its no use telling you sorry coz its not my fault.. but i'm a natural paranoid girl, i will keep thinking that its my fault. no matter what. all i wish for is for you to be happy. is it that hard? i'm sick of finding tears in my eyes. i'm sick of holding all my tears back in front of people. i am all weak. i've used up all my strength. it hurts me to see your smile off your face. i wish i could be the shine that would put the smile to your face. but obviously, i'm not. all the sweet things you wrote to me, said to me.. sent to me.. i dont wish to think that you didnt mean all those that you said. i've waited long enough. i want to message you. but i cant. coz you wont like it. you seem happier without me.. what did i do? i dont wish to lose you. i really dont. she told me not to think about it, to do nothing about it. please. you are someone i love.. someone i treasure. how can i just not bother about you when you obviously aint feeling good. but it seems like you rather tell other people than to tell me. i accept to fact. i accept the truth. you told me you need time to open up.. i am giving you time. hopefully, the time will be up soon. i dont wish it to last forever. i dont.

Sweet loving escape.
2:15 PM

Sean Paul - Get Busy

Shake that thing Miss Kana Kana
Shake that thing Miss Annabella
Shake that thing yan Donna Donna
Jodi and Rebecca

Woman Get busy, Just shake that booty non-stop
When the beat drops
Just keep swinging it
Get jiggy
Get crunked up
Percolate anything you want to call it
Oscillate you hip and don't take pity
Me want fi see you get live 'pon the riddim when me ride
And me lyrics a provide electricity
Gal nobody can tell you nuttin'
Can you done know your destiny

Yo sexy ladies want par with us
In a the car with us
Them nah war with us
In a the club them want flex with us
To get next to us
Them cah vex with us
From the day me born jah ignite me flame gal a call me name and its me fame
Its all good girl turn me on
'Til a early morn'
Let's get it on
Let's get it on 'til a early morning
Girl it's all good just turn me on

Woman don't sweat it, don't get agitate just gwaan rotate
Can anything you want you know you must get it
From you name a mentuin
Don't ease the tension just run the program gals wan pet it
Just have a good time
Gal free up unu mind caw nobody can dis you man won't let it can
You a the number one gal
Wave you hand
Make them see you wedding band

[Chorus]
Yo sexy ladies want par with us
In a the car with us
Them nah war with us
In a the club them want flex with us
To get next to us
Them cah vex with us
From the day me born jah ignite me flame gal a call me name and its me fame
Its all good girl turn me on
'Til a early morn'
Let's get it on
Let's get it on 'til a early morning
Girl it's all good just turn me on

Woman Get busy , Just shake that booty non-stop
When the beat drops
Just keep swinging it
Get jiggy
Get crunked up
Percolate anything you want to call it
Oscillate you hip and don't take pity
Me want fi see you get live 'pon the riddim when me ride
And me lyrics a provide electricity
Gal nobody can tell you nuttin'
Can you done know your destiny

[Chorus]
Yo sexy ladies want par with us
In a the car with us
Them nah war with us
In a the club them want flex with us
To get next to us
Them cah vex with us
From the day me born jah ignite me flame gal a call me name and its me fame
It's all good girl turn me on
'til a early morn'
let's get it on
let's get it on 'til a early morning
girl…it's all good just turn me on

Yo, Shake that thing
Miss Kana Kana shake that thing
Yo, Annabella shake that thing
Miss Donna Donna
Yo Miss Jodi yu'r di one and Rebecca shake that thing

Yo shake that thing
Yo Joanna shake that thing
Yo Annabella shake that think
Miss Kana Kana

[Chorus]
Yo sexy ladies want par with us
In a the car with us
Them nah war with us
In a the club them want flex with us
To get next to us
Them cah vex with us
From the day me born jah ignite me flame
gal a call me name and its me fame
Its all good girl turn me on
'Til a early morn'
Let's get it on
Let's get it on 'til a early morning
Girl it's all good just turn me on
[x2]

Let's get it on 'til a early morning
Girl it's all good just turn me o

Sweet loving escape.
1:47 PM

**Clayton da himboish himbo visits.

Hi Debs.
Bimboish bimbo.
It's me again.
How are u?
Bet u're still as bimbotic as usual.
Or have u become MORE bimboish?
HE HE HE HE HE!
Is da font TOO HUGE?
well.. it's good in a way.
So da WHOLE WORLD CAN SEE ME.
MUAAHAHAHAAHAH!
-POKES YOUR FACE!-

Sweet loving escape.
1:29 AM

Thursday, July 24, 2003

deborah is a natural paranoid girl who will only feel paranoid to people that she really cares about.

Sweet loving escape.
10:59 PM

Wednesday, July 23, 2003

hmm.. its been days since i came online.. either i reached home just simply too late.. or i am just simply too tired.. sigh.. dear's blog seems scary... she isnt in a good mood.. sigh.. had dance today.. bibi came to take over cheryl today, coz cheryl is sick.. haha.. but the warm up sucks BIG TIME! i am all aching all over.. haha.. thanks to dance.. did 2.4 today.. not well done.. but seriously cant be bothered.. i am not fit and i dont really want to be fit. eh? then again.. i want to be fit.. alright.. contradicting myself ya? hmm.. having guides tomorrow.. till 5.. realised something today.. i'm spending little time with kane. either i am busy or she is busy. so we end up meeting only for like maybe 3 hours? 1/8 of a day.. sigh.. i dont know.. i think i am being paranoid.. but when i read her blog, the 1st thing i thought of was that did I do anything wrong.. sigh.. think i am being paranoid again.. feel that her feelings are fading.. i dont know.. how? someone please stop me from feeling this way.. sigh.. :( *weeps*

dear.. why wont you share your probs with me.. i am seriously more than willing to share my probs with you.. why.....

Sweet loving escape.
11:24 PM

Tuesday, July 22, 2003

Lamborghini Murcielago - Everything about you is
absolutely over the top. With a positively
sick top speed of 205 mph, you have more power
than anyone could possibly need, and a V-12
whose sound would make a Viper cower in fear.

Which of Mike's Favorite Sports Cars Are You?
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Sweet loving escape.
10:44 AM

Monday, July 21, 2003

weeeeeeeeeeeeeee! stupid himbo... argH! hahaha.. did my art.. felt like a total idoit doing my art all by myself.. so lonely.. felt like i am a total loner.. dear wanted to come over at 10 plus? really wanted her to come down.. but cant.. her mum will make noise.. dont want that to happen.. promised her to be home by 11.. got home at 10.45.. then called her.. talked to her on the phone.. now talking to her online.. but going off soon.. feeling rather tired.. and guess tml will be a long day.. need to rush through my art.. need to buy the coloured papers.. blah blah blah.. worse.. buy the coloured papers already? still need to cut more.. cut cut cut! one day i swear i will cut that bitch hair off! argh!!!

i love dear.. love her so much i dont want to part with her....

Sweet loving escape.
12:08 AM

Sunday, July 20, 2003

Your partner Clay da himbo Invadesssssssssssssssssss
BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO!
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BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO!
BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! B I M B O ! ! ! ! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO!
BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO!
BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO!
BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO!
BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO!
BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO! BIMBO!

My godness.
Took me a zillion yrs ta arrange it.
Plz Thank me.
hahahaha.
and yea.
I realize your running words.
R U N N I N G D A M N N N F A S T ! ! ! ! ! !
god..
where are they runnin to?!
Muahahahahahah!
plz cheer up.
your PMS is ~~scary~~!
Clay's runnin. runnin. runnin. (obviously.. i'm damn amused by tis) runnin. runnin. runnin.

Sweet loving escape.
9:46 PM

i am having.. argh.. PMS!!!!

Sweet loving escape.
7:30 PM

Saturday, July 19, 2003

hmm.. went to school for make up course.. then went to watch the syf practise.. gosh!! so nice ok! haha.. its b-e-auuutiful.. hahhaha.. then went over to tp to get some stuff.. then poh wanted to meet her darling.. hahha.. but my dear also there la.. so cal came to meet us 1st, then went to join clay, win and pui.. waited for dear for like thousand years.. hahah.. forever la.. then met her.. helped poh buy fag then came home.. realised that i was freaking hungry so called dear to ask her to pei me eat.. then went for boring tuition.. tuition ended! weeeeeeeeeeee! so happy k.. then went to meet dear.. hahah.. clay is lame.. i swear.. then went to tian tian lai to eat.. hahah.. but no more tian tian lai.. they were closing.. so ate fried oyster.. after that felt moody, pekcek, grumpy.. complainy.. and i dont know why? sheesh.. PMS coming.. or rather.. i think its here.. sigh la.. then dear went over to her aunt's house coz its her uncle's birthday? hmm.. meeting her tml.. she is going to pei me do my art.. hahha.. that is IF she feels like coming out? sigh la.. always like that... now her cousin is lending her a book.. thanks.. so she has got like 2 books with her for her to read. i can forget about spending time with her liao.. why? coz she's got HER BOOKS what!

Sweet loving escape.
11:02 PM

dear so sweet to me.. all the ants all crawling towards her.. "careful ants, dont harm her.. she is my ever dearest baobei.. "
sigh. i think i am crazy over her..

Sweet loving escape.
12:32 AM

Thursday, July 17, 2003

hmm... art sucks art sucks!

Sweet loving escape.
11:58 PM

Angry Goth

What Kind of Goth Are You?
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Sweet loving escape.
12:10 AM

Wednesday, July 16, 2003

hmm, its been like how many days since i blogg? ok. actually its not that long la.. its only 2 days.. hahah..
mother scolded the hell out of me the moment i step into the house.. she wants me to quit dance. no way am i quitting dance. no way.. its my interest, no way am i giving up my interest. was really angry with mum just now.. but its fine now.. mum knows about kane dear.. and i certainly knows that she knows that both of us got something going on.. she came to talk to me just now.. told me that she knows that i am meeting kane recently.. i got a shock.. the letters that kane gave me are like just lying on the cupboard OPENLY? sheesh.. if she go reads it.. i think she will faint.. mum says that my skin is getting bad too.. sigh.. want to go do something to my face.. sheesh. i think i'm offically in love.. :)

Sweet loving escape.
11:23 PM

Monday, July 14, 2003

argh.. feeling so sick.. feel like puking.. i want to see my darling.. i want her beside me now.. its so near yet so far.. :(

school was boring, i swear.. but i didnt sleep a wink in school? its surprising.. seriously.. after school went to fag, then came home.. did some of my work, then went to meet dear.. was wearing until very.. sigh, shouldnt mention about it.. cal's mother went to cut hair.. moreena went to cut her.. cal's twin sis went to cut hair.. dear wants to curl her hair? "dear, dont ok?" everyone is telling me not to cut my hair anymore.. sigh.. came home after that, ate mum's food.. felt so like puking even before i saw the food, i swear i am falling sick soon.. :/

Sweet loving escape.
11:09 PM

Sunday, July 13, 2003

hmm, went to watch the performance at the singapore rojak place.. not that badly done, cant have real high expectation though, they were only given 3 days.. then followed poh to go to clean up and so we decided to go for lunch since we are so freaking hungry.. met gwen and mindy. then joined them to walk around. gwen and mindy went to take neoprint while poh and i waited outside. was just suffering from headache, so guess i should just shut up, just in case i explode in front of the wrong person ya? haha.. then walked over to far east.. went window shopping and all, gwen went to meet her mum, mindy went to meet huizhi and all, poh and i went to meet our darlings.. my dear met us 1st, she went to buy some pens since her school starts tml.. so fussy you know that girl, no inky pen, no pens with cover.. gosh! take so long to find pens. then went to find poh's darling.. went over to her house.. rotted at her house.. dear is cute. i think as the days go by.. i am falling deeper for her. i love my dear.. :)

Sweet loving escape.
9:49 PM

10 points just for my ever dearest ever sweetest ever nicest ever loving ever caring*list goes on and on and on..* darling bacbei.. :)

1: i wish to see you now
2: i cant wait to see you again
3: i miss you..
4: i dont wish to lose you..
5: i feel so ~~fucking~~ warm whenever i'm with you
6: i feel as if i am on cloud nine whenever i'm with you
7: i feel happy when you are happy..
8: you are the best present i've received in 2 years
9: i feel as if my dream have come true..
10: i love you sooo much!

Sweet loving escape.
12:25 AM

Thursday, July 10, 2003

well, everything was still within my control at the beginning of the day/night.. but towards the end. i just couldnt control it anymore..

dear, i'm sorry.. am really sorry.. i promise i wont do it again.. i promise to control my temper.. i really do promise.. sorry...

Sweet loving escape.
11:10 PM

The Withered Lover

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11:07 PM

Wednesday, July 09, 2003

hmm.. dear said i cant come online coz tml i've got test.. so i have to hurry this.. haha..
went to fag 1st thing in the morning.. went to school.. bored and rot in school as usual.. haha.. *whats new?* then went to tian tian lai to makan lunch.. went for PLC training.. sheesh.. hahha.. so shit ok.. was late.. had spot check? gosh! so scary.. hahha.. after guides waited for poh. just to find out that she has to stay back till 8??? poor girl.. haha.. then came home, went out to meet dear.. :) then did my chinese.. like finally? hhaha. then poh came to join us(cal, kane and me).. then she left around 9 plus.. i went over to the tian tian lai place.. wanted to go see the pasar malam.. but like.. err.. how many shops were open? hahha.. sheesh. then laughed and laughed and laughed.. sheesh, thinki frightened dear.. sorry dear.. *innocent smile* haha..then got home.. hahah.. ok. shall go read my "bedtime story"(history) hahah..

Sweet loving escape.
11:48 PM

Hey Princess! Get off your cell phone and listen
up! There is more to life than the mall, boys,
and your hair. You are the typical look-
obsessed, popular "cool" girl.

What kind of typical high school character from a movie are you?
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Sweet loving escape.
11:42 PM

Tuesday, July 08, 2003

gee.. i think i must really put a fullstop to all these tests already..hhaa..

Sweet loving escape.
11:22 PM

avoidant

Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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Sweet loving escape.
11:18 PM

god you dumbass.

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Sweet loving escape.
11:14 PM

You have a dominant kiss- you take charge and make
sure your partner can feel it! Done artfully,
it can be very satisfactory if he/she is into
you playing the dominant role MEORW!

What kind of kiss are you?
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Sweet loving escape.
11:10 PM

You represent... happiness.
Boy, are you full of cheer or what...? You have a
sunny disposition and enjoy trying to spread
your happiness. You have a tendency to be a
little hyper, but you have the ability to make
your own fun no matter what.

What feeling do you represent?
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Sweet loving escape.
11:08 PM

Middle-aged. You'll die from something unexpected,
just when your kids are going to college or
something great is happening. Cause Unknown.

At what age will you die?
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Sweet loving escape.
10:15 PM

haha! went to school and was like dying in school ?after school was the stepping down ceremony.. haha.. its was ok la.. just scary.. haha.. :) after guides went to meet dear.. *smiles from one end to another..* haha.. but sadly.. not meeting her till friday.. tml she feel like rotting at home, and i got guides.. then thursday she pei-ing her god ma to see doc.. so cannot meet me also.. sigh.. so sad.. going to miss her like one ting tong.. haha.. never mind.. spend enough time with her today.. although not enough.. but still.. there's like only 24 hours in a day.. how long can i see her for? sigh..

dear.. will miss you tons ok?? :)

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Monday, July 07, 2003

was so freaking tired yesterday, i just freaking swear its so dirty and tiring..
went to school like so freaking late, was supposed to be in school at 7.30, but met dear for breakfast.. and i freaking reached school at like err.. 10? in time for my 10.30 shift.. jo.goh paid like 5 bucks for me to get to the place for her to freaking smash my face?thanks ah? haha.. got dirty.. had a tough time trying to clean up, but obviously i cant.. looked like a freaking walking monster? haha. thanks. forced dear to bring clothes and all for me to change and bathe. haha.. then they came, and they wanted to smash me before i can clean up? argh.. dear so cute. haha.. she said sorry before she smashed me.. hahha.. cal and clay did the same thing, got as dirty as before.. but dirtier? sheesh, went to clean up.. then took an obviously long time to do so.. then daddy bj came! so long never see her already! went back to the carnival to get food and all.. sheesh..then got my fag, went back to class to fag and slack.. gosh! clay cant stop calling me a bimbo! argh.. so irritating! haha.. then left the classroom.. poh went off with closefriend to use up her tickets.. then cass and i went to clean up.. dear and clay i think were like quite pissed off coz of something.. but its ok now ya? haha..

sorry poh for not being understanding enough...

ran all the way to meet dear and all.. as in really literally ran to find them.. then went there.. see some stuff that i seriously dont want to see.. got so stress, so angry, so i dont know.. i just started tearing.. gosh.. i cant believe it.. i actually tears in front of kane.. i think i freaked her out ya? hee.. sorry dear.. yups, then got cheered up when poh came over and all.. then came clay.. gosh.. couldnt stop laughing.. hahha.. according to the rest.. its the himbo(clay) and the bimbo(ME??) together.. hahah.. argh.. then went over to tp macs to slack.. haha.. 1st saw clarabelle.. yeeks!.next was like MINDY LEE??? *grossed out* then clay still hi mindy! i swear i wanted to murder her.. mood spoil.. went home.. slacked..

today wasnt much better.. hahha.. woke up for tuition, was suppose to go down town to watch a movie.. or rather 2.. but poh cant come out today, so met kane at braddell kfc.. hahha.. braddell kfc reminds me of poh and cal.. its so funny.. hahah.. cal came to join us.. then went to cal's house.. i really rotted there man.. as in seriously rotting.. ivy, cal and kane played mahjong.. had no mood to play.. so decided to just lie there at the sofa to rot, but was rotting too much then decided to go over to the table to take a look at their tiles.. hahha.. then sat beside dear to watch her play.. hahah.. after that went over to a place called ah mao? ahah.. went to makan coz i was so freaking hungry.. then while eating.. dear and cal happily talked about something that i FUCKING hate.. right in front of me? thanks ah.. was so damn angry can? after like quite a long time.. i was ok.. then laughed along like nothing has happened before.. :) came home shortly after that.. realized that i've got like chinese test tml? hahha. my book is in school. .deb.. how smart can you get? hahha.. sheesh.. there's school tml.. so sian.. got guides like after school too.. hahha.. sheesh.. stepping-down ceremony.. long day tml..

i trust you and i will always trust you.. :)

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11:52 PM

Saturday, July 05, 2003

t i r e d ! ! !
went to school to help out in the stall for the carnival, but ended up that i didnt help much.. either there is really nothing for me to do.. or they just dont want to me do anything.. maybe they are afraid that i will spoil everything they have done.. haha.. slacked for the entire day after that.. then we left for lunch and poh and i wanted to go shave eyebrows.. haha.. i dont want to shave, poh wanted to shave hers, then i pei her go lor... such a nice friend huh? hahha.. dear is such a pig, call her to wake up, take so long to pick up her phone.. but feel bad waking her up and demanding her to stay awake.. opps. but i promise i wont do it when her school reopen? haha.. poh is feeling moody today.. so scary.. so long never see her angry liao, so long never see her fa pi qi liao.. today fa for so long.. so scary.. sigh.. need to go school at 7.30 tml.. sian, but never mind.. dear will be going to the carnival tml! so can see her.. :))))) ok.. i am entirely crazy over her.. sheesh, better stop all these rubbish about getting all crazy over her.. qi bing taught me a new thing.. shall try it..

weeeeee
i love you.. please love me too!

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Friday, July 04, 2003

weee!! in school now! haha! so bored.. playing poh's cd using the com.. hahah.. two people behind me dancing. .hahha. .want to go monks tonight!! what shit man.. hahah.. but obviously i cant? damn.. hahha.. weee! think darling will be going there tonight.. hahha.. good for her la.. get surrounded by Ps la.. hahha.. ok la.. later if she reads this.. she will ask me dont like that again.. hahha.. she is so cute! ok. shut up deborah! stop talking about her! hahah.. its enough! wee! going to meet her later.. :)

i feel like a princess surrounded with attention, love and care when i am with you.. :)

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12:30 PM

Thursday, July 03, 2003

ah!!! i love my darling.. she is so cute!!! she's like a bear.. so ke ai!! i love her so much! she is at the chalet now enjoying herself.. never mind, as long as she enjoys herself ya? wasnt happy with her today, then she por me.. heex. i almost fainted alright? hahah.. so sweet! all the ants all crawling to her liao la! :))))))))
well, was freaking tired today.. but i only slept for chinese? its a miracle.. i promised her that i would only sleep during art, but in the end, didnt even sleep during art.. :) oral was scary.. cant talk properly.. gosh.. i was freaking out.. after that waited for poh, but she took a thousand years since she was the last girl, so decided to go meet poh and my darlings.. raining chickens and ducks. then poh called me then her darling went to pick her up.. haha.. they were all soaking wet i swear.. hahha..

i've found the warmth i lost, in you darling. :)

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11:18 PM

gosh! its been freaking long since i fucking blog! well, seriously, i've been to busy.. i just had a talk with my sister.. i never knew she really did so much for me.. i guess, i should really set my goals right and all.. dont want to disappoint her again and again.. i dont like to see that look, that eyes on her face.. ok, i think i am going to breakdown now.. i cant take it anymore, i am not managing my time properly.. i really do ("v") her alot.. alot... but.. at the same time, i need to study, and i cant resist the temptation on being with her.. i feel like i am back in my old-self. i guess, we wont last.. ok, i seriously dont know.. i dont feel secure.. i havent cried for my stead for so long.. i dont know why am i crying now. i dont seem to be as confident as i used to be.. it seems like.. i am all weak and all... i really do want to keep you by my side.. i really want to be in your arms everyday, i dont know what to do.. i seriously dont know.. alright, i am just a fucked up bitch, just leave me alone.

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