a penny of thoughts:
Many things happened recently and brought me to think about me and my life. Of how I am leading it and how I should go about changing my life.
Talks with my classmates brings me to feel that somehow I'm leading a shallow life. This particular ex of mine once told me that when one engage in a conversation, it would serve one good if the basis of the conversation is meaning. For example, the talk on current issues. For my field of course, the talk on films seems like a prominent part of my life. I have to constantly upgrade myself about the nice films. Nice not meaning those dumb blonde shows that I've been watching the past life. Nice meaning either in terms of story boarding or the film as a whole. Example of such films are the recent vcd that I bought. The phantom of the opera and American History X. American History X is one show I would NEVER catch in the theatre. Mainly because it just won't catch my eye/attention. Shows that would catch my eyes or attention would be things like legally blonde, how to lose a guy in ten days, honey, etc. These are the typical hollywood shows. Film aren't just about hollywood. There are films that are outside of this field that are worth watching and I failed to notice them.
How about books? Books with bright colours and about relationships are those that will catch my eyes. I have this weakness for colours. I know. Life isn't just about happy endings. There are times when we end unhappy. But we just refuse to face the fact that life is unhappy. We try to avoid it during films and books. Time for ourselves, we keep our life as "happy" as possible. Somehow, I feel the need to balance things out completely.
School somehow brings me to another point. When people are talking about sex(this is a common topic in my class), those who keep quiet most of the time makes me wonder what is going on in their mind? Should they be thinking what disgusting creatures we are or do they just have such little experiences to talk about. Either ways, it doesn't make sense to me. First thing first, sex is a normal thing in life. Be it homosexual or hetrosexual sexual intercourse. I would say everyone would have their own need to satisfy. It's just an essential in life. No doubt some would say they can live without sex. But from my point of view? Sex is just a spice in life that spice up everything. Of course I am not refering to easy sex that you can find in geylang or changi. I'm refering to sex as an intercourse with feelings attached. However, in the context of conservative Singapore, this three letters word seems almost like a taboo in teenagers. Shouldn't teenagers have their own desire too? They should be venturing out. Imagine if you have entered the work force and you're all caught up with work. Due to the lack of venturing out during the teeanage years, your fantasies have gone out of the way and you start to go to extremes(easy and unsafe sex) and end of screwing up your life. The word sex brings to so many different topics. Some of which is making a big fuss out of nothing. I shall not go into details.
I have to think about a topic for my upcoming essay. I shall be having many penny of thoughts in my upcoming entries.