Blogging is like a weekly thing now. It's the first week of school and I skipped one day already. Fuck. Juggling things are not as easy as I think it might be. Production and school comes together and there goes AJ. I don't know what to do now. Now that I've someone else to help out with the accounts, let's just hope things will be better. Glad that things were talked out last night and I promise I'll try my very best to delicate my attention to you. Love.
Sweet loving escape.
3:21 AM
Saturday, October 14, 2006
It's a friday night and somehow it does not seem to matter when it's the weekend anymore. I have entirely no life. Honestly. It's 12.07am and my eyes are shutting. It is not normal for me. I usually sleep around 2 plus 3. Even though I'm home, I just somehow sleep at that time. It's amazing early tonight that I'm feeling tired. It was not a long day at work afterall. Went in to office at around 6 plus 7. It was busy throughout. Though I mingled a little. It's nice mingling around. Getting to know more people in the industry will not kill. I swear this is the only point(besides the money) that is pushing me through the job. School's going to start on monday and I have to rush down to office straight after school. No time for my precious classmates/friends. I hope tuesday is not going to be the same case though. I honestly wonder how am I going to squeeze all my time together. I just miss sleeping in during the day till late hour. Just miss having to know for a fact that my entire day for a few days in a row is free. I just miss me.
Sweet loving escape.
12:12 AM
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Today's my only reasonable off day. After so long of unrest. Someone said that I did not enjoy my holidays fully. I agree. ): School's starting soon and I honestly am not looking forward to it. Though I know I've no choice, but I honestly feel like bunking in even during school days. Screw production and work. Just feel like being on my own and just enjoy ample alone space. Not mentioning with AJ too. Now that school's going to start, she's going to pack her schedule up tight too. Now, we'll see how we can spend time alone together. Tomorrow's going to be a long day at work. Have a meeting to attend. A meeting cum dinner. I have to be present not because of work but because knowing more people in the industry would just simply mean a brighter future for me. It's about high time I catch up with my classmates regarding building up a reasonable resume. Don't you think? Not that I really want to. Having to juggle so many things at the same time is going to be hard on my mental and physical health. But at least I suppose I have a girlfriend to support me right? Sat's our anni and I have entirely no idea what to get her. It's going to be a belated present. Not that getting a present is a must. I think sooner or later, we're going to abolish the whole giving each other presents idea. Haha. I'm going to miss staying out late doing nothing. In fact, I have not been doing that for quite some time. Haha. I will not be able to do that when school starts. Will not be able to go over to AJ's house to stay and will not be able to play host to AJ too. Things will work out just fine. It will. As soon as the project ends, I'm going to be able to have more time available. (: Just that before that, I'll have to have to juggle with both my projects as well as the production. AJ's over at my place now and she''s leaving soon. ): I'll spend the last few minutes with her now. BYE!
Sweet loving escape.
10:50 PM
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
I'm so tired and why am I not surprised. This time is not about spending time with AJ. Ok, perhaps yes we did spend time with each other late at night, but only because of our busy timetable. Now that I've gotten a production work to work with(yes, you read right.), we've even lesser time to spend with each other. Each time we plan to have alone time seems so distracted by other things somehow or another. Oh well. We'll work things out right? Back to my working issue. I've taken a few weeks off from my workplace and was anticipating my freedom of space and time. I honestly thought that I could rest and replenish my sleep before school starts. Obviously this is not going to happen. I'm up with Oak3 to deal with the pre production as well as during the production days to do some monetary paper work. So that means, production, work, school, AJ and hopefully, if I have the time, driving. With so much commitment. I'm honestly thinking how am I going to cope. Haha. I think I'll work things out. Moreover, I really need to do really well for Oak3, since my reputation is at stake. If I managed to do so well with them, get along with the people(which does not seem like a problem right now), I might be able to get other projects in future too right? On the other hand, I thought of how I might be screwing up their money issue scares me though. Just when I'm blogging this entry. I had to deal with my paper work. ): This is a one hour long entry. Appreciate.
Sweet loving escape.
12:55 AM
Friday, October 06, 2006
I know it's extremely childish to go on and on about one particular person. Especially when that someone is not your partner. Which means that someone is someone you're angry at or pissed off at. But honestly speaking, something someone do or say just simply don't match. Big talk for the purpose of? Impressed? Not impressed here. Cheat yourself? Perhaps. Ugh.
Just stop lying to yourself.
Sweet loving escape.
12:42 PM
Met up with zhen today. (: Met her to go shopping! Haha! We walked from bugis street to bugis junction and back to bugis street. Haha. Fun hanging out with her. (: Honestly speaking, it's nice meeting up with old friends. Hope to meet up with the rest soon. At least before my holidays end. Next week perhaps. My feet are aching but I honestly don't mind. At least we still have things to talk about. Still crapping. (: I bought 2 skirts and one top. We drop by this snack shop and I swear we had fun in there. We bought LOADS of vintage stuff. Haha! I bought polar snack, seaweed, san zha and this number 8 chocolate. Haha. She bought the wan wan flour biscuit and some other stuff. Haha! Went around looking for berms she wants to buy. We obviously could not find it and she decided she must get something for herself today. So she spent 12 bucks on this useless specs. Haha! Just meet up again! (: Met AJ after that. Wanted to take a cab down to town from bugis because my legs are aching(I was in heels) but the queue was super long. So I took a train. Went down to crown to meet her and head to central to meet poh, kayne and bj. I shall not mention anything. Kane came down after that and the 3 left. Bitched a little and gobbled most of my snacks away. After which. I came home. I think the most happening thing that happened today is meeting up with zhen. Talking about old school days, talking about entirely nothing that matter and talking about things that matter. Not mentioning shopping. (:
tired.
Sweet loving escape.
1:31 AM
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Recent events made me think about how one person can affect so many others' lives. Whether it is indirectly or directly. Somehow or another, I believe everyone who was present that particular night was affected in some ways. Anyhow, I wish for everyone's well being. (: Currently at work. (: Not meeting AJ for tonight. That poor girl is sick and she needs rest. Plus we decided that we should not be meeting up everyday. Both of us need our own personal space. My life can't be revolving around her. That isn't called a life anymore. Haha. Will be meeting up with old school friends tomorrow. For dinner as well as catching up. Can't wait honestly. It's been AGES since we last met up. (: I have difficulties communicating with bangadash workers. I can perfectly handle the way they smell differently from the rest. But their command of english can REALLY make me scratch my head ten million times. I'm serious! And this is not a racist comment. Just a thought that come by. There are some nice friendly ones though. Some who calls me sister everytime they see me the way I call people I know uncles and aunties. Interesting people around. (:
I just want to run around like a mad dog. (: Don't ask me why. I just feel like doing that.
Sweet loving escape.
7:12 PM
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