sigh sigh..
was just having diarrhea just now.. pain..
made my asshole so hot..
going out soon.. i'm hungry and i'm craving for some wantan mee soup..
hahah..
going town to meet poh..
passing her the cd..
hmm..
reached home at 3 plus am..
can you imagine? i didnt sleep from yesterday 5 plus am to today 3 plus am?
i'm dying..
but i slept till 5 plus 6 today..
now i'/m really hungry..
my stomach is growling
no breakfast for me
no lunch for me
no wonder i'm hungry
Sweet loving escape.
7:16 PM
Wednesday, January 28, 2004
someone please help me.
i'm dying to get some sleep.
my timetable for this week after school.
mon:PLC meeting
tues:practical then dance then total defence training
wed:total defence training
thurs:history homework
fri:sec1 orientation
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what's this? i'm so packed i hardly get to sleep.
what about my homework? what about my tests?
gosh. this is killing the spirit in me.
i still got to do my homework after this
got maths and some english homework i havent found time to do
but then again, i did attempt to do the english
but the printing is really bad. my eyesight isnt that perfect
i cant do..
never mind, i'll just try..
someone please help me..
someone please figure out a way for me to fit in EVERYTHING.
i'm dead tired..
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by the way, happy birthday to everyone
it's 'ren re' today, its supposely everyone's birthday according the the lunar calendar
i can't wait for saturday to come.
i can't wait for sunday to come
i can't wait for monday to come.
i wish tuesday wont come
i wish wednesday wont come
i wish thursday wont come
i wish friday wont come
i cant wait for saturday to come.
-the 'chant' goes on-
Sweet loving escape.
8:19 PM
Tuesday, January 27, 2004
hmm.. didnt go school today.. vomited in the morning..
would be going to school for practical and audition later
if time permits, i would be going for total defence practice after that.
my timetable is really packed.
no time for afternoon naps, no time for baby.. no time for this for that
so people please bear with the slow update.
sigh sigh.. baby isnt picking up my call, she isnt replying my msg.
my baby is LOST! hahaha.. but dont worry.. i'm not going to cry!
hahaha.. unlike hmm.. hahaha.. just shitted and i'm missing my baby alot alot..
everyone please pray for me.. please pray that my baby will hurry reply my msg ASAP!
Sweet loving escape.
10:41 AM
Monday, January 26, 2004
~~~~kane's invasion~~~~
hihi! ur all time favourite butch is back... (i better be..) i'm currently in school now being bored out if my skull... my lungs are soooooo smoke deprived... all this fresh clean ionized cool air is killing me.. damn.. how do these people live like this.. its so clean.. hahaha... y am i bloggin this here?? this should be on my own blog.. anyway baby.. u know.. i was, am and will be thinking u of the whole day till i see u again at night... soooooo long... *whines* i suddenly got headache... hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.. sorry kids.. this is a private joke... "er tong bu yi" hahahahaha... mish u so much la baby... hee.. i'll be off le .. *muacks**
Sweet loving escape.
4:56 PM
Tuesday, January 20, 2004
hello hello!
oh! did i mention i FINISHED my new year shopping!! it's a whole load off my mind. tomorrow i'll be going for dance. *note: going for dance*
well, if you dont understand by this, you will find out IF you're in the same school as
me.if you're not, too bad.
oh well, went to school during recess today because i was just being too lazy PLUS
was having a spilting headache. lessons after recess was alright, two periods of
maths, one period of chinese and one period of cleaning up.
i never knew maths could be so fun. i really wish maths would be the first subject
everyday, really works my brain out. however, it also drains my energy, so i think
maybe the last period should be good. then again, i'm not sure. oh whatever.
chinese was rather boring, but then again, since when is chinese fun. i tired my best
to concentrate, but obviously, i didnt. fell asleep instead.
cleaning up? it was ok.. but i was raining hard. seriously, i was worried. because the
blur me left my umbrella at home. hee.. but thankfully the rain ended by practical.
practical was the usual, after which i went for the total defence practice for as
long as i can.
To Mrs Tan: If you happen to read this entry of this, i would like to let you know this.
i'm sure that i have NEVER, and i dare say NEVER given you any trouble in guides.
i hope you have seen my potential as a leader last year and that i have a reason
for doing everything i've been doing. I know that i've done major wrong last year, but
i think you could actually see the difference from then till now. Even so, i don't see
the reason why you should actually talk about me behind my back with the PLs and
jumped to conclusion without even talking to me. I dont blame for you reading my
blog because afterall it's opened to the public. However discriminating my friends
wouldn't be a very nice thing to do. I don't think by going up to you would clear
things up because i guess you will choose to believe the CL. I
may sound really rude here, but i'm also sure that you know me long enough,
either from my blog or in person, that i can be really rude if i want to. However I'm
giving you the respect I think i should be giving you simply for a reason because i
feel that you do give me respect too. Also, I dont think it'll actually sound nice for
you that the guiders and the PLs(excluding mingjie and i) were having a meeting,
of which i wasn't informed about, and you all were talking about us. I dont exactly
think you would be much happy if the PLs were to have a meeting without
informing you and talking things which isn't very nice to hear about behind your
back right? And if one of us were to speak up for you and were asked to keep
quiet, i dont exactly think it's nice too, right? If you are talking about favourism in
guides, i think you're also showing it among the guides as well as the PLC. Plus
i have my reasons for treating certain people differently. i always thought that
the guiders would somehow be different compared to the other teachers, my
impression of them are changing, towards the bad side. I really wish i could leave
guides with a better impression and i dont deny that i'm not happy in guides,
all i wish for is that it wouldn't get worse. But sadly, working in guides this year
really dampen my hopes and wishes. forget it, i think if i continue talking about this,
you're probably going to have a WORSE impression of me. Its up to you for what you
think, i cant control it. I just can't believe that you saw the change in me but yet you
chose to believe some people who obviously dont know me well. Its ok. I'm utterly
dissappointed in everything that has got to do with the word 'guides'.
Sweet loving escape.
7:17 PM
Monday, January 19, 2004
accounts test sucks.. i forgotten everything.
and i mean everything..
going to meet poh at 4.30..
going to be late..
i miss my darling alot alot..
i cant wait to see her.
god damn tomorrow there's total defence practice..
till 5..
but if i'mnot wrong i've got pract till 4.. hee..
Sweet loving escape.
3:37 PM
Saturday, January 17, 2004
i'm back from camp!
the camp wasnt as bad as i expected to be.
there was a trashing session
i guess many problems rose up then
many things needed to be done
sort of made up with my ex-friend(now present friend)
thanks to the camp
i guess maybe i wasn't that happy
but many things was archieved
had dinner at holland V yesterday
Mrs Lee came to join us at crystal jade
fun.
she knows about me fagging i think
but trust that she wouldn't get us into trouble
was fagging in 5/2's room
nosey classmates of mine smelled
and went to the room to check
but luckily we were prepared
hurry threw and acted as if nothing happened
after camp while walking out of the campsite,
saw darling waiting for me patiently at the busstop
it feels so good to see her again
waited for aaronn to reach and off we went to holland v
went to eat katong laksa, yummmy
went to delifrance to slack and fag
pure enjoyment..
went off with darling to town because she's got to work
took a cab home
uploaded the pics into my com and will be putting it up soon..
or rather now..
Sweet loving escape.
5:52 PM
Wednesday, January 14, 2004
hmm.. i just bought a digital cam.. my fucking sister broke the bottle of perfume kane and i bought together.. i'm fucking waiting for her to come back. damn.
school was rather ok, made brownies yesterday to sell today.. business was ok la..
yesterday i brought buttercake that i baked down to baby's work place to give her a surprise.. hee..
failed chinese test after studying my head off
its ok. i'll try again..
friday's my camp.
i'm definately not looking forward to it at all.
sucks.
Number One: deprived of my baby Number Two: i dont like my class.
sigh.. its a compulsary thing.
will be meeting clay to study tommorrow..
i hopre poh and kane can come too. sigh.
Sweet loving escape.
7:01 PM
Saturday, January 10, 2004
sigh.. fucked up.. everyday is fucked up.. i hate my life.. my love lifes SUCKS! been quarrelling for two days in a row.. fucked up.. friends.. sigh.. school? i dont think i need to mention anything.. fucked up fucked up..
Sweet loving escape.
9:49 PM
Friday, January 09, 2004
bah! school went off fast today.. i have a great mind of dropping art.. i think i would.. at the most i can use all the 5 extra periods to study my other subjects.. anyway.. i cant draw.. so taking art is just a waste of my time..
having test next week.. having camp next week.. sigh.. camp=time deprived from my baby.. :(
going new year shopping with the maos later.. have a feeling its going to be a complaining session.. clay is stressed up.. poh is stressed up.. and so am i.. 3 out of 4 maos is feeling damn stress.. not sure about kane.. i think her timetable is rather relax.. sighh..
hmm.. cant wait to get new clothes!! so exciting!!! hee.. well.. going to eat now.. ciaoz!
Sweet loving escape.
3:33 PM
Thursday, January 08, 2004
one, two, three, four!!! four days since i last blogged.. school is a terror..
"the gap between N levels and O levels is very big.. you all have to work very hard.." *something like that*
sigh.. been trying my best to concentrate.. been trying to cope.. sigh.. i'm trying to get kane to accompany me to study everyday.. i dont care how i'm going to do it.. but i am.. i need to study and i cant study alone.. i need the atmosphere..
had tuition yesterday.. (tutor:darling baby kane) at least i understand my biology now.. so much clearer.. physics is still as sucky.. sigh.. chinese is boring.. i'm actually placing hope on my humanities? i dont know how.. but i'm trying.. there's a chinese test coming up.. social studies test too.. accounts!! so many test.. so much stress.. i hate school.. i dread going to school.. i hate it.. it drains my brainpower.. school sucks..
cant wait for tommorrow.. maos are going for new year shopping!! i cant wait.. i'm excitied!! hee.. thats the only thing i'm looking forward to now.. sighh...
Sweet loving escape.
5:30 PM
Sunday, January 04, 2004
went to bugis V today to shop for kane's school bag.. she got it.. and i think she is happy about it.. hmm.. i bought a pencil box.. kane's sister bought a top.. and a purse.. hmm.. went to church with kane and her sister.. hmm.. ok ah..
they came to my house after that.. watched vcd.. rested.. ate dinner.. then they went home.. its the earliest kane ever left my house..
school is starting tommorrow.. having tuition tommorrow.. sigh..math.. what a pain.. but i know its good for me blah blah.. sigh... definately not looking forward to school.. not any bit.. sigh...
Sweet loving escape.
10:46 PM
Saturday, January 03, 2004
sigh.. bad day yesterday.. i forsee it wouldn't be that much better today.. sigh.. PMS is here.. kane is suffering more than me.. reason being i'm venting my anger on her.. all my unhappiness on her.. sometimes i really want to stop it.. but it seems like she wants to be part of this.. i dont know why is she so silly.. i really dont know..
meeting the main maos later at newton mrt at around 6.30 if i didnt forget.. going to newton cirus to eat with them.. hmm.. kane's really sweet.. i'm melting.. everytime when i feel low.. she will definately be there for me to cheer me up.. not mentioning poh and clay.. they cheer me up also.. i kindna miss hoilday.. to think i was looking forward to school.. sigh..
thanks the main maos for cheering me up.. accepting all my rubbish.. for making me so happy...
thanks my baby for being my punchbag.. for doing all the silly things that will cheer me up.. thanks..
no thanks to the class for irritating me.. for spoiling my day.. for being such two face bitches.. no thanks for that. really.
Sweet loving escape.
12:46 PM
Thursday, January 01, 2004
hee... finally after a thousand years my cpu is back.. thanks my baby for helping me to update my blog every now and then.. well.. its 2004 now and i'm dead tired.. went monks yesterday and was already tired.. then plus all the dancing.. i almost died.. kane came over to my house to stay after monks and she just left a few mins ago.. well, did i even mention that i've gotten my **PAY**? hee.. well.. got my full 600 for working for 2 weeks.. not just one certain kid who is irritating me there.. but 2.. so i treasure all the time when either kane can come over to plaza or i can go over to suntec.. not mentioning my off days.. and i took so many off..
tuesdays poh and clay came over to meet me.. and i started work at 2.. obviously i went late.. its not that i arrived at PS late.. but i just went to the toilet and all.. then went to the store late.. then when poh and clay went over to visit me.. i decided to go shopping for my school bag.. and hee.. i got it!!! and i left work at around 3 plus.. but surprisingly.. the boss actually like me quite abit? ok.. enough about work..
school's starting tommorrow.. and i cant wait to go school.. althought i'll be seeing all the faces i dont want to see.. but i just cant wait to study again.. it seems like i miss studying.. work is so boring.. must i say it again? BORING! gosh.. this is such a torture.. but thankfully.. school is starting tommorrow.. the only thing that i dread now is that i have to pack so many books.. and i cant wait to use my school bag! i think its nice.. i dont care if people say "it's ok la.. " or "nice meh?" as long as i think its nice that means its nice.. oh.. clay and poh chose it for me.. hahah.. so at least i know clay and poh thinks that its nice..
gosh.. it feels so good to be staring at the computer now.. and i have a sudden craving for chicken rice.. maybe i'm insane.. but i miss foodcourt food.. miss coffeeshop food.. i definately dont miss cup noodles.. CARREFOUR's food sample.. gosh gosh.. no more Carrefour for me.. no more PS if possible for the one week for me. or maybe one month.. well.. maybe i've talked quite abit.. so tata!
Sweet loving escape.
8:35 PM
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