many things happened recently
many unhappy things, some of which i said
some of which i didn't
why must there be all these problems?
why.
sometimes i just wish that all these problems will disappear
but my wishes NEVER come true.
sighh..
maybe i'm not ready for this life
i don't know.
everything changed quite abit.
why why why why.
--
to all those people i've quarelled with:
sorry for what i've done.
maybe i should be more understanding.
but i can't
somehow or another, something has stopped me from doing that.
i wish i can close my eyes when i see that people who aint doing much is gaining the efforts that i put in.
but it's just too unfair.
maybe being in the f**k class has made me selfish.
i do try to be selfless.
but it came to a point where i can't anymore.
i appreciate it if we each do our parts.
but please spare me from doing so much.
i too am tired.
trying my best to control my temper.
please i beg you, don't provoke me.
i can be nice if you are nice to me.
--
i dread going to school.
going to school=stress.
stress in class, stress in guides.
comeon people dont think that guides is nothing.
so many cunning people are in guides.
i'm sick of putting on smile when i'm unhappy.
but at the same time, it'll be unfair if i am showing a face when you're not involved.
sigh.
what shit life am i leading?
each day the only time i'm looking forward to is my sleep.
it's the most peaceful time of the day/night.
--
if one day i'm able to do any magic of a kind.
i'll choose to be invisible.
i'll choose to disappear from this f**ked up world.
everyone is showing different faces under stress.
i can't take it.
at all.