ah.. accounts test just finished.
i'm not dying what, who said i am.
hmm, finally the hectic week is over.
guides at 2.30, after that dance till 8.
no what i never come to school for more than 12 hours what.
hahah..
i'm deprived of my girlfriend. alot.
i hate school, deprive me of her.
oh. did i mention that i went to the gym for two days in a row?
hahaha. i want the perfect body that i'm looking for!
hahahaha.. insanity. i want to hear music, but confirm will get scolding.
baby? if you happen to read this, i just want to tell you, i miss you.
Sweet loving escape.
8:52 AM
Thursday, February 26, 2004
in school now.
having art now.
gosh.
going to study accounts in the library.
by the way i'm in the library now.
i'm hungry, so hungry..
i'm going to eat prawn noodle.
sigh.
i'm damn stress now.
gym, guides, dances, school.
no what who said i'm going to die..
no la.. not going to get stress like no one's business what.
Sweet loving escape.
9:12 AM
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
test test and more test.
someone please save me!
gosh.
i hardly have time for myself!
i need a life.
guides dance school personal life.
eh wait. i dont even have a personal life.
sigh..
i need a life.
NOW!
Sweet loving escape.
12:47 AM
Friday, February 20, 2004
having english test now..
the entire class in cheating outright.
hahah...
i learnt two new words
elated=happy
dismal=sad
hmm.. imagine if one fine day i say,
i'm feeling dismal and elated today.
.. whatever.
school is alright.
just missing my baby who is currently at home now slacking her god damn life away.
oh oh!!
i'm sitting on my class chair now, in front of the class table.
hahaha.. the com?
keyboard is on my table, mouse in on the table.
hahah.. all thanks to the three of us.[poh, cass and me!]
hahah.. our ingenious idea of the year!!!
lalalala. going to laselle till 4 today.
gosh, have to pass up the test now and i'm not done.
-dead-
Sweet loving escape.
12:25 PM
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
school was alright today.
not so bad.
in fact much better than the rest of the tuedays.
took class pic and individual pic.
tomorrow would be guide's.
hmm, just finished eating in front of the com.
yum.
had tom yam MAGGI mee..
hahah.. it would sound nicer if it's just tom yam noodles.
never mind.
have got free time till 8 plus.
going to take a nap as well as do some fillings.
gosh..
i miss you.
Sweet loving escape.
3:31 PM
Monday, February 16, 2004
finally.
a day of school where i can come home straight away.
no more activities in the evening.
it's all self study.
school is a stress tank.
sucks.
i never do understand why the school says walk back to class
and they actually make us run?
with teachers shouting at the top of their lungs.
oh whatever.
going to meet bob to study later.
soon i guess, i might be late but i might not be too.
-shrugs-
going to practice on my maths.
need to practice hard so as to maintain my status as tuitionless.
going to study biology too.
i feel very lagging.
saw my report card today.
2 red marks.
social studies:4/13?
accounts:7.5/25?
madness.
feb results will improve. i promise myself.
school place the most important position in my life now.
i'm sorry baby.
i can't put you in first anymore.
i know you'll understand. i thank you for this.
i'm sorry for yesterday, baby.
i was over stress.
i wanted to be part of your life.
sorry for those heartless words i've implanted in your brain/mind.
so much as i don't want you out of my life, i still said things to hurt you.
sorry.
need to go for now.
bye.
Sweet loving escape.
3:27 PM
Thursday, February 12, 2004
many things happened recently
many unhappy things, some of which i said
some of which i didn't
why must there be all these problems?
why.
sometimes i just wish that all these problems will disappear
but my wishes NEVER come true.
sighh..
maybe i'm not ready for this life
i don't know.
everything changed quite abit.
why why why why.
--
to all those people i've quarelled with:
sorry for what i've done.
maybe i should be more understanding.
but i can't
somehow or another, something has stopped me from doing that.
i wish i can close my eyes when i see that people who aint doing much is gaining the efforts that i put in.
but it's just too unfair.
maybe being in the f**k class has made me selfish.
i do try to be selfless.
but it came to a point where i can't anymore.
i appreciate it if we each do our parts.
but please spare me from doing so much.
i too am tired.
trying my best to control my temper.
please i beg you, don't provoke me.
i can be nice if you are nice to me.
--
i dread going to school.
going to school=stress.
stress in class, stress in guides.
comeon people dont think that guides is nothing.
so many cunning people are in guides.
i'm sick of putting on smile when i'm unhappy.
but at the same time, it'll be unfair if i am showing a face when you're not involved.
sigh.
what shit life am i leading?
each day the only time i'm looking forward to is my sleep.
it's the most peaceful time of the day/night.
--
if one day i'm able to do any magic of a kind.
i'll choose to be invisible.
i'll choose to disappear from this f**ked up world.
everyone is showing different faces under stress.
i can't take it.
at all.
Sweet loving escape.
12:39 AM
Monday, February 09, 2004
****kane's invasion****
-in school now..
-waiting for them to have break so i can go to the coffee shop
>>I LOVE YOU..
Sweet loving escape.
10:09 AM
Monday, February 02, 2004
wee! hee.. finished all my homework EXCEPT math.
it's not my fault.
i can't do them, i've got no graph paper with me
hmm.. gave tuition a miss today.
i knew i knew hard and hard that there would be tuition today..
but opps! hee.. i just pretended that i didnt know
hmm.. had so much fun today at novena square..
OH OH!!! poh and i saw THE TWIN OF T.TAN!!!!!!
so scary! hahahahah..
anyway.. i'm going to invade my darling baby's blog soon..
it's been time since baby updated her blog..
so.. i shall help her! hee.. ok now! off i go!!
Sweet loving escape.
11:04 PM
Sunday, February 01, 2004
my mother is on the verge of killing me..
gosh..
its our 7th month anni today..
was with baby all through yesterday till err.. 2 plus today in the afternoon..
as you can guess, i stayed over at her house..
so pleasant hugging her to sleep..
but her mother came in..
got scolded..
took me a long time to at least dont make her mother stare daggers at me..
looks like i'll have to re do everything now..
:(
going to do my homework later..
tomorrow is another holiday..
another long weekend..
love long weekends..
love hoildays..
Sweet loving escape.
3:39 PM
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