a long time since i last blogged.
many things happened.
many things of which i refuse to think about it at this point of time.
she's actually a deep person.
she's will now be someone i dont see the need to look in and search.
i tried before.
nothing came out.
tried using reverse pyschology.
nope. it didn't work.
tried the soft method.
nope.it didn't work.
tried the harsh metheod.
obviously it didn't work.
nah.
you asked me not to give up on you.
i tried.
sorry. i had to give up on you.
call me heartless, call me insensitive.
i don't bother anymore.
not anymore.
leave me out in conversations.
i'm fine alone on my own.
we are still friends.
but whatever that happened will always stay deep in my heart.
you never knew me well.
just by one sentence"you're strong i'm not"
i'm never strong.
i just dont see the need of exposing all my weakness to everyone.
i believe one day all those i told you will make sense to you.
but i also think that that one day will come too late.
because you always believe in yourself.
it maybe good.
but it may not.
period.
just had prelims yesterday.
it was bad bad and bad.
i predict i won't do well.
if i fail i'll kill myself because there is compo, oral and listening to help.
blah.
to my baby if you ever see this:
it hurts to see that our time together is decreasing.
either because of your commitments or mine.
it hurts badly to say goodbye to you everynight.
everytime i have to leave you.
it hurts.
i may not be able to cope with everything soon.
i will go crazy soon.
please everyone.
don't blame me.